I'd love to hear you sing as well! I've... had some people wander in on me singing which was a bit embarrassing. Especially when you think no one can hear you, and you're not really doing your best.
Aha, Won caught me singing in the woods. [she beams in mutual embarrassment—but then her face falls] Although I... I'm afraid I've forgotten the song, since then.
I'm not even sure I remember what I've lost. I must've lost things but they've been... small? Or, well. I'm not sure if I'd know to remember them anyway.
[ she looks thoughtful for a moment, and maybe a little... wistful? ]
Just stay true to who you are now? [ she. well, who is alex benedetto, anyway? she doesn't know. but she knows who she is right now, and what the "she" right now thinks and feels. maybe holding onto that is enough.
she looks up a little sharply at that last sentence though. ]
... Don't talk like that. I don't know if we can afford to be ideal now, but... I don't want more people to die. Even the people who are killing, it's not as simple as "bad" or "good", or "deserves to die for this" or "doesn't".
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[ alex 🤝 elsa
excited about SINGING ]
I'd love to hear you sing as well! I've... had some people wander in on me singing which was a bit embarrassing. Especially when you think no one can hear you, and you're not really doing your best.
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He snuck up on me in the planetarium. [ bad boy. but then she looks genuinely upset ] Oh no, was it because of this place?
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It was the first thing I lost. It’s funny how it keeps coming up.
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I'm not even sure I remember what I've lost. I must've lost things but they've been... small? Or, well. I'm not sure if I'd know to remember them anyway.
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Isn't anything... missing?
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[ ... ]
It's... terrifying, honestly.
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That... does sound awful. Comparably, I seem to be getting off rather lightly. I'm... just... forgetting people, I think?
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Forgetting people?
[ ... ] That's what I'm most afraid of. Maybe I've forgotten someone, but so completely I don't even remember they exist.
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[this is what she is saying.]
But... it's fine. I still remember the things that are important to me. I'm still... me.
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[ shhhheeeeeee hates it! ]
...
[ oh ]
That’s not a bad way of looking at it.
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I'm... not afraid to die, either. If I need to.
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Just stay true to who you are now? [ she. well, who is alex benedetto, anyway? she doesn't know. but she knows who she is right now, and what the "she" right now thinks and feels. maybe holding onto that is enough.
she looks up a little sharply at that last sentence though. ]
... Don't talk like that. I don't know if we can afford to be ideal now, but... I don't want more people to die. Even the people who are killing, it's not as simple as "bad" or "good", or "deserves to die for this" or "doesn't".
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[she. sighs.]
I won't hold you up any longer, if you're going to see Shuuya. I think I'll try to see him later, after everyone else.
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Okay. I'll try not to be too long.
[ .... um. ]
At some point I'd like to hear you sing. When you feel up to it, I mean.
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I'll trade you. We can sing for each other.
How's that for a compromise?
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[the smile doesn't dissappear from her face.]
Take care of him. I know you will.