chanteuser | QUASIPLATONICROMANTIC NOT-MESS

[he's... here, that's about all that can be said for him at the moment! emet-selch is sitting in the sand as well, facing the ocean, slouched over there just as he used to always be.

his mask's held in his hands, as he just silently looks out to sea; he's probably listening, but he has little to say right now.]

Hey.

[Hansa just rests a hand gently on his shoulder.]

We'll see him soon. Chiron, I mean. We'll make that happen.

... I know. We are too far now to fail; I gave him leave to volunteer with that in mind.

[a slight shake of his head.]

I-- knew, later. That he was chosen. I have already had the time to come to terms with that.

...

Yeah, we expected it, didn't we.

[He shakes his head as well, pensive.]

I mean, you have a point. We were prepared. Doesn't make it hurt less, though.

It does not make him any less absent, no.

[he breathes out a slow sigh.]

But with the requirements fulfilled, then perhaps he will not be missing for long.

Exactly. Let's focus on that.

[And a long pause.]

Hey. Did you get something back, Emet-Selch?

...I did. I remembered the years that I lost, along with- what truly became of my world, and myself.

[even having known it before-- to have it all return in a rush is still heavy, and he is still settling back into the knowledge once more.

but he pauses for several long moments, before:]

I also recalled something separate that I had forgotten.

...I see.

[Yeah, it was nice to have him so...hopeful, almost, but...that was a false hope. Even he, during this week with his mind in a million different places, was scared of suddenly referring to all of that in front of him.]

[The last part makes him furrow his eyebrows, however.]

What is it?

[it sure was nice to think his home still existed yeah... but here we are once more.]

...one of the members of the Convocation. I had thought him to be gone, but... I did not remember until now that he was still present, in some way, though he lost pieces of himself over time. Much as we have done here.

[double dose of trauma! it's fine! he's FINE.]

...

[A member of the Convocation?]

How terrible. I suppose...he had you for support, then.

-well, we did not often work together directly, no. And by the end of it, I do not think any support I had to offer him would help.

Was...was he that far gone?

...he still had his duty and his mission to hold fast to. In that way, he was himself.

But he no longer seemed to recall any feelings he once had for us. I attempted, once, to encourage him to remember.

[he breathes out a slow sigh.]

He said that he would simply lose it again, with time. That if the memories were so precious to him, he would not be asked to forget them twice. I cannot say that I agreed with his outlook.

[so in that way-- no, there was no supporting him.]

Goodness gracious. This place is really built to stab you where it hurts, huh.

[Emet-Selch Trauma Central! Got to love it!]

I'm sorry. That you had someone like that who was...losing himself. [And he was helpless to do anything.] Especially after all that you lost...

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[ oh dear.

well. she can assume if hansa got a memory back, emet-selch probably did as well, but she... can't be quite as sure what he regained as she is with what hansa regained. ]

...

[ i'm assuming he's close enough that she can lean and just lightly knock her knee against his side. ]

Emet-Selch?

[he doesn't flinch from the touch, at least, or reject it-- though he also doesn't turn to fully face her.]

Alex. ... you need not concern yourself overmuch with me.

If you're feeling low enough to stare silently out at the ocean like this, I'm going to be a bit concerned.

[ that's not something she can just turn on and off. ]

I will be well enough. Just- allow me a bit of time to readjust.

[hansa is not the only one who's back to normal this week.]

... [ ah. ]

...

Alright. Just... don't isolate yourself. Okay?

I am here, am I not?

You are.

[ it hasn’t gone unnoticed. ]

But in general. Not just right this second. We can always put aside some time to just do nothing, but not alone.

Really, with how nosy some people here are, it is harder to be alone more often than not.

[he waves a hand, with a slight huff.]

I do not intend to run off and mope, do not worry. We have work to do yet.

[ Alright, keep your secrets. ]

... right. Whatever it is that we’re supposed to do next. I expect we’ll find out if we’ve done enough to bring them back soon.

[ which... good, honestly. she can’t place if she’s sad, mad or just uselessly frustrated at what happened with chiron over this week. and it leaves her feeling more and more helpless. ]

The requirements should be fulfilled. What happens next remains to be seen, but... we have done everything that we know to do.

And now we just have to hope it was enough.

[ the idea that it might not be makes her feel sick, but-- like he said, they've done everything they know to do. ]