[ she was honestly just walking in a daze and letting her feet take her wherever they were going to take her. that whole execution was a mess. she didn't see what happened or hear what happened towards the end but...
she had to look eventually.
regardless, the hug completely blindsides her and izumo's first reaction is to freeze in place. ]
what if she does all three? it'll take her a bit but just something about how alex just holds her like this and constantly tells her it's fine is... she doesn't want to be at the mercy of her feelings anymore but it's so much.
she's furious. so. yeah. she'll cling to alex and be mad, shout, and cry all at once. ]
[ thank you for allowing her to do all three because she will for a while.
though once she's done she'll hiccup a few times before pulling away with an apology. who knows how long she had been crying and screaming against alex but her voice is definitely scratchy now. sometimes...you just need to let it out and she's thankful it was alex, honestly. ]
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WEEK 1, sunday post execution
walks straight over to her
and gets her in a hug. ]
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she had to look eventually.
regardless, the hug completely blindsides her and izumo's first reaction is to freeze in place. ]
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I'm sorry.
You... you were crying so much. I was worried.
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there have been so many people willing to show her affection outside of her partner that it's startling. ]
I, it's fine. [ she'll try to wipe her eyes just to prove the point. ] I'll...get over it.
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You can take your time with it. Don't push yourself to get over something like this before you're ready.
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but with alex encouraging her weepyness, she'll try that much harder to not be. ]
Everyone loses people all of the time. [ maybe not in such a traumatic way as they did, but she's no fool. ] This is no different.
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Yes. That doesn't mean you have to force yourself to get over something if you're not ready. That doesn't help anyone.
[ especially not you. ]
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Sulking around doesn't help anyone either. [ she's!!!! not!!!! going!!! to!!! cry!!! again!!!!!!! ] Or being angry.
[ ...except she sort of does. ]
None of it helps.
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Does it help you?
Then it’s worth doing, if it is.
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I don't know.
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If it helps, do it. Get mad, cry, shout. Or not. [ grief is never the same ]
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what if she does all three? it'll take her a bit but just something about how alex just holds her like this and constantly tells her it's fine is... she doesn't want to be at the mercy of her feelings anymore but it's so much.
she's furious. so. yeah. she'll cling to alex and be mad, shout, and cry all at once. ]
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alex will just adjust her grip so she can hug her tighter, and get a hand on top of izumo's head so she can stroke it gently, and soothingly.
she doesn't say anything though, because... well. what is there to say? she can get rid of grief just by talking it away, that's not how it works. ]
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though once she's done she'll hiccup a few times before pulling away with an apology. who knows how long she had been crying and screaming against alex but her voice is definitely scratchy now. sometimes...you just need to let it out and she's thankful it was alex, honestly. ]
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alex just strokes her hair until she pulls away, but keeps her hands resting on the girl's arms. ]
Don't apologise for that. Better to get it all out than keep it all locked up.