IZUMO

[chanteuser]

izumo every trial

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[chanteuser]

Normally something happens that makes you realise you like someone. And that you want to say something about it.

[ yes there's a step by step process and if you get it you're cursed, izumo. ]

[sacredchants]

[ this sounds horrifying. ]

I... I told you some of it that one time. [ when she was trying to look cute?? ] A, and it wasn't as though I said anything...at first.

[chanteuser]

At first. But you did, in the end?

[sacredchants]

Kind of.

I've only been able to put some of it to words.

[chanteuser]

... It's not something you can easily encompass with only that, huh?

[sacredchants]

Is it easy for anyone?

[chanteuser]

If it was people wouldn't overthink it the way they do.

[sacredchants]

What...you just say whatever comes to mind?

[chanteuser]

Of course I don't.

[ that's the point...!! ]

[sacredchants]

Then there's nothing wrong with how I haven't been able to say everything.

[chanteuser]

I didn't say there was, Izumo.

[sacredchants]

Th, then why did you ask for a process?

[chanteuser]

I meant, like... did you both just figure it out and just fall into it? Did you hold hands? That sort of thing.

[sacredchants]

O, oh.

[ uh...um??? ]

I... I suppose we sort of fell into it, and we did hold hands. We...we've held them plenty.

[ she's just answering questions as they come to her since it's easiest??? ]

[chanteuser]

[ she looks delighted. ]

Good for both of you. It's... nice having someone around who has your back, isn't it?

[sacredchants]

It is. [ she smiles but then also looks down at the ground. ] I hope that I'll have his more than the other way around now. It always seems like he's taking care of me.

[ admittedly, her time here has sucked so? valid? but also :/ ]

[chanteuser]

...

You will. I thought the same way, a lot but... I guess things changed over these past couple of weeks. It's not any clearer, if you are helping. You just have to hope you are, and that they're getting something from it.

[sacredchants]

[ ...

hope and trust. two things she doesn't have in spades. ]

...I genuinely hope that's the case. I know how I can see and handle things can hurt him.

[chanteuser]

That's half the battle, I think.

[sacredchants]

So, I'm lead to believe, but I also know that there will be just parts of me that won't be able to avoid doing things that he won't like.

[ changing everything about who you are for just one person? hmm. no. what are relationships? this is hard. ]

[chanteuser]

That's why you communicate, though? No one's perfect, you're not gonna get by without stepping on each other's toes a bit along the way.

[ izumo you're

going to have to learn to use your words ]

[sacredchants]

I do communicate.

[ just fucking poorly. ]

...or, well, I'm not trying to hide things from him anymore.

[chanteuser]

... That's a good start?

[sacredchants]

[ LOOK THIS IS HARD? ]

What else am I supposed to do?

[chanteuser]

What you're doing! Just... more.

But everyone has some secrets, you know. You're allowed that.