[ wow of all the things to follow up a heartfelt confession and a kiss with, hansa. she looks a little surprised for a moment-- proper wide eyed, and blinking. ]
...
[ and then she tilts her head. ]
... I already figured that whatever happened, if you did feel the same way, I'd be sharing you to some extent with Emet-Selch. [ you can't erase ten years, not from a person's life or experiences, even if you can remove them physically. there are things that will be shared in that time that she can't begin to understand or feel. and those things have shaped and changed relationships in ways no one could really have seen coming.
especially after this weekend, and how badly almost losing him had hurt hansa. that knowledge, that weight had settled on her then and... well. she'd felt relieved that emet-selch hadn't been removed, due to what it would do it hansa. twenty-four hours might not be enough to full come to terms with that and see where she is with the idea, but... it was already there. that part does not surprise her. ]
Chiron, well... [ the horse, as always, is a surprise. ] I already knew about his feelings for Emet-Selch. That part... doesn't surprise me. [ the surprise is more... all three of them? all four of them? that's the part that is a lot to wrap her head around. but there's the insistence that... she doesn't have to push to form relatonships that don't work for her, or do anything that she doesn't want to do...
[He's pleased, of course, that the offer isn't rejected outright, but he hardly wants to make her feel like she's pushed into this with no way out. It's all up to her. Whatever she says, goes. In the end, if she decided to cut it all down, and leave, he'd just follow.]
[He leans into that hand, his own sliding gently around to the back of her neck.]
[ she nods, the hand at the back of her neck like an anchor. like always. her mind wants to rush at high speed -- what happens if it doesn't work? what happens if it isn't okay? but then there's that contact and it steadies her again. slows her down.
like always really. when isn't she relying on him, in ways she didn't even realise?
...
"I'm really, sincerely, deeply in love with you."
... ]
No pressure.
[ maybe a little, but ... less than she would have thought. her thumb keeps brushing against hansa's cheek, just as soothing for her as it seems to be for him. ]
... I saw what this weekend could've done to you. I don't want that to happen again.
So... [ it's a sincere request. one that clearly meant a lot to hansa, from the nerves he had and the weight when he asked her. ]
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...
[ and then she tilts her head. ]
... I already figured that whatever happened, if you did feel the same way, I'd be sharing you to some extent with Emet-Selch. [ you can't erase ten years, not from a person's life or experiences, even if you can remove them physically. there are things that will be shared in that time that she can't begin to understand or feel. and those things have shaped and changed relationships in ways no one could really have seen coming.
especially after this weekend, and how badly almost losing him had hurt hansa. that knowledge, that weight had settled on her then and... well. she'd felt relieved that emet-selch hadn't been removed, due to what it would do it hansa. twenty-four hours might not be enough to full come to terms with that and see where she is with the idea, but... it was already there. that part does not surprise her. ]
Chiron, well... [ the horse, as always, is a surprise. ] I already knew about his feelings for Emet-Selch. That part... doesn't surprise me. [ the surprise is more... all three of them? all four of them? that's the part that is a lot to wrap her head around. but there's the insistence that... she doesn't have to push to form relatonships that don't work for her, or do anything that she doesn't want to do...
that's something, at least. ]
...
[ she strokes her thumb across hansa's cheek. ]
I want to talk to them first. Please.
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[He's pleased, of course, that the offer isn't rejected outright, but he hardly wants to make her feel like she's pushed into this with no way out. It's all up to her. Whatever she says, goes. In the end, if she decided to cut it all down, and leave, he'd just follow.]
[He leans into that hand, his own sliding gently around to the back of her neck.]
Its your decision, in the end.
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like always really. when isn't she relying on him, in ways she didn't even realise?
...
"I'm really, sincerely, deeply in love with you."
... ]
No pressure.
[ maybe a little, but ... less than she would have thought. her thumb keeps brushing against hansa's cheek, just as soothing for her as it seems to be for him. ]
... I saw what this weekend could've done to you. I don't want that to happen again.
So... [ it's a sincere request. one that clearly meant a lot to hansa, from the nerves he had and the weight when he asked her. ]
I'll take this seriously.